Tuesday, January 24, 2012

I've been robbed!!

I’ve been robbed! Something so precious was taken from me and it is absolutely irreplaceable.

On our wedding day he sang to me “Forever’s as Far as I’ll go”. Yet he isn’t here with me now and that just isn’t ok!

We had a saying, “80 on a porch swing”. It was our way of saying we were in this for the long haul. We were supposed to get struck by lightning and go together. Neither of us wanted to be the one who was left alone.

Now I’m here and he isn’t. How is this fair? How is this ok?

I keep trying to move forward and in many ways I have. But I have come to realize there is a part of me that is forever his. There is a hole in my heart that only he can fill.


  1. So very sorry. My heart sank when I read this. Ben will always be with you, especially in your heart. I know that it doesn't replace him being truly by your side. But, you are amazing and have an amazing family and you will continue to survive this with Ben in your heart and soul. Sending you much love.

  2. Sorry sweetie. I know exactly what you mean...it is not fair and we all have been robbed!